i threw away my free bus pass for blind people and got a gas can

None of us are ever fully born are we? Those fortunate enough to give birth to themselves, to experience rebirth, even partial rebirth, are countless seasons of bloom beyond the many whom, sadly, wander reacting, as if stillborn, unto death.

Johnny and Mary - Robert Palmer
What Wilbur - Snakefinger

Once you are first born, the pressure of the contracting uterus is replaced by the contractions of life and culture. This pressure reinforces steadiness, less change, not more. The contractions of life press you into a tighter mold of who you were, deforming projections, extensions and surprise until you are smoother, smaller, more tightly wound, less festooned with unpredictability, surprise, bombshells and bonanza, until you are ultimately pressed back to a fetal form, simply reacting to your environment within a rigid decision frame you erroneously consider as thinking. Here are some terms that come to mind from the lexicon of birth, and what they seem to transmogrify into…

Shari Vari (Mike Grant's Cool People Mix) - A Number of Names
Suspicion - Toy

the uterus becomes your perceptions of self, culture and life